WAW and the Big D

[Bdog37]

Journaling/venting

Ugh, not sure why I let my ex get to me. I was dropping my D off at school and while leaving out the door she was blowing me kisses while smiling. Her actions made it tough to leave and it brightened up my morning. Seconds later I get a text from the ex basically explaining that she is sick and tired of waiting for this D to be over. She explained that she wanted to know if I was going to put the house on the market or buy her out. She told me that she needed to "move on" and wanted to buy a place for her and the girls. She wants me to sell the house that my dying father willed to me so she can move on... Needless to say that her comments upset me so I basically just told her that I will see her in court. She clearly didn't like such a short response and went into a tirade about how she found someone who makes her so happy and that she isn't ashamed she moved on so months ago. Said that the marriage has been dead for awhile and that the only thing holding it together was a meaningless piece of paper.

I just responded with that I was glad he makes you so happy. However, I wanted to truly scream at her from the top of my lungs. Here, I was having such a great morning and now reading her comments just ruined my entire day. I want to know how in the h*** was our M "dead" for awhile now when the memories I have in the past 6 months were wonderful. We took an adult vacation to New Orleans with another couple, hosted 3 parties at our house, went and saw our beloved Chicago Cubs in a playoff game then all hugged as a family in our living room the night they won the WS. I mean, we were all literally hugging as a family on Nov. 3rd and then the very next day my life was turned upside down.

How in the world can someone say so many harsh things to someone they once loved?!?! How is it even possible for them to do so without any remorse whatsoever??

I'm so sick and tired of crying and caring for a W who thinks I am the devil who caused her so much pain. I seriously wish I could erase the last 16 years of my life. I seriously wish I never had met her, married her, had children with her, planned my future with her, loved her, etc. There are so many wonderful W out there and this one has destroyed my outlook on them.

Such a bad day now thanks to her.....ugh!!!