I am sorry to read that you haven't been feeling well. I agree, your body is reacting to all of the stress and it needs to refuel/recharge. A few "treats" will not hurt you at this time. You will lose the weight when all of this situation is behind you. For now, listen to your body and get as much rest as you can.
You've been an inspiration to all of us here, on the DB Forum, you help others IRL, and you are trying to deal w/your situation as well as work a job and look after your aged pa. That's a lot of balls to be juggling. I know you have a time limit to get things in to the lawyers and the legal system, but also try to carve out a little bit of time and spend it w/your aged pa or on your own. One of the first things we tell others is to "breathe". Vanilla...take a moment and "breathe".
In time all of this shall pass and you will be able to spread your wings and plant your feet back on stable ground. I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
Please take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
