I'm on a down swing at the minute. Had ups and downs since Friday - W was nice, then spewed and raged about MBR, I grabbed her phone, not good. She texted abuse so I blocked her til the morning.

Weekend went OK, mostly pleasant, until she went to take a photo of D5 while she was sleeping, and had Skype on it when she opened her phone. I got mad.

Then have been eaten away at since then, really want to make sure the EAP (OM) has a god awful 30th birthday tomorrow. So got home angry and told W that's what I was going to do, that I knew it would make her angry, and I didn't care any more.

I'd had enough. I also told her she should leave. She said she would, so I said she could go to her mother's and get up at 5:30 every day to come and look after D5 when I leave for work, see how she likes those early starts...

None of this will happen, she won't leave, it's not practical. I'm just not sure how much more I can take. Don't think my DB coach will be pleased... I was meant to be writing and giving her the apology letter.

I just think it would be easier if I didn't have to see her every day, but that's just my anger talking.

Deep breath. Start again.


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Me: 47 WW: 35
SS: 17 D: 5
T: 7 yrs Engaged: 2 yrs
OEA confirmed: August 17 2016 ongoing since April 2016.
OEA continues (with occasional breaks)
BD2 - W says will visit OM in Jan 18