JR, I am thinking about it. I guess I just don't feel up to it--it's painful and exhausting. And expensive. The MC also had told us that I need to come to terms with this and there was only so much he could do to help with that. She also said that not everyone can. He thinks going is the only way this can work.

C-nut, hello buddy, long time no see. You may be right that H feels like I am punishing him. I dont mean to, I just feel detached, but I can understand that point of view. I don't worry about him walking away. He needs to do what he needs to do and I will be fine in this life with or without him. So I don't even worry about that.

In terms of us taking a break, well that would be a good start if we decide to go our own ways. It's complicated tho and we would need to sell the house first. We live in a very expensive part of the country and I don't think either of us could stay here on one income. We have a very nice house in one of the best neighborhoods. I love my home. I also don't want to hurt the kids again--they are all doing so much better with our family as one unit. I wish I could take a 2 week vacay! Lol. I have been taking a few days here and there, but that is not possible.

In my sitch, I really don't think absence will make the heart grow fonder, I wish it was that easy!

Even tho H has been back for 2 years, I would not say we are actively piecing. I think right now we are prioritizing what needs to be done and just finding our own way.


Blu

“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela