Yes, it's very difficult to be patient, but you'll need to dig deeper for more patience as you walk the path. You are very wise to keep your focus on the day to day activities and life your life to the fullest as much as possible.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
