Thank you again for the recommedations! I will check them out I need to reduce my caffeine intake. I've started taking chlorophyll again hopefully that will help too.

D had her bday party w/friends today. She had a really good time and it went well. W looked awful when we got there. We talked a little and she went back to city where step inlaws are again this week (it's almost a 4 hour drive) and went out with/coworkers for someone's 21st the night before. I can't believe how she is running, no wonder she looks exhausted. At least I can step back now and see she's still cycling. I thought a lot about the list bttrfly posted just recently and could see so much of it going on with her.

W was proud of setting up d's party, decorating, cake, etc. I offered to help several times over the last couple weeks and today but she didn't want much, just asked me to pay half. I thanked her for everything and told her she gave d a great party which she seemed grateful for. I helped a couple of the kids roller skate and did catch her looking at me once while talking to another parent who's s I was helping. D wanted to stay w/her mom tonight. W told me she wasn't ready so we had dinner and a movie and then I took her over. W was already asleep.

My parents and grandparents made a trip to come see d yesterday so it was a bday weekend. We also got in a bike ride and basketball yesterday afternoon and ice skating last night so I kept myself and the kids busy this weekend.

I found out the decree was ready Friday afternoon so I will have to go in this week to sign. I had to negotiate a little more once I noticed the child support payments were dated starting a year prior but it's worked out now. I will be fair but I remembered about treating it like a business deal and as such there were things I let go like w's charges on my cc when I know she went to see om, her not paying half of medical bills as stipulated while keeping the supplemental insurance because she bought the policy, and not giving me half of other things we agreed on so I wasn't going to pay for the year of her running around and dragging the kids off.

I wanted to ask her if it was really what she wanted before going in to sign but I think she answered that by signing. I think rationally it makes sense so I want to ask but since it's MLC talking it would be counterproductive and I need to focus on myself and be thankful things went how they have for me.