Roist - what you wrote about our situations restraining us resonated with me. It's something I've been thinking about quite a bit. How do I carve out more of a life for myself within this situation? How do I plan a future? Lately, I often feel unsettled.
It's been a rough week. My dog was sick through a night. Poor guy. I was up all night, on the hour, with him. Then s11 got sick. Then s13. Then? Yep, me. I am running a sleep deficit.
Things have been quiet with h. A few snide comments. The other night at dinner he came in and turned on the light over the kitchen table. I joked and asked if he was ready to see the delicious meal I'd prepared. In an angry way he said he was checking to see if I was trying to poison him (by adding things to which he's allergic). I said, with a shrug, "well, now that is awfully paranoid of you." He didn't respond. He was huffy.
A few times he's mentioned some old memories fondly to the kids. A few funny stories about when they were young.
He sent me a message letting me know what he's going to be eating from now on. Looks like he's back on the teenage girl diet. I googled some of the newest things he's introducing into his rotation and most of them seem to help with youthful appearance. He's back on that. And overall, it's so low calorie. He's going to be cranky from hunger. I am going to bake cookies and all sorts of things to test his will.
He's in his room a lot; same as it ever was. I don't know how he can stand so much time in that confined space.
Me 41, H 47, M 15 yrs, S11, S13 BD 1: 11/4/14 we work on it; really I pretzel myself BD 2: 3/31/15 H goes down to "dorm room" 8/15: H back to MBR 10/15: H back in dorm room 1/18: H files, now divorced
