Firstly thanks for the extremely kind words about being a great dad etc. Well, sometimes they drive me mad, but I wouldn't change them for anything! They are my world right now. I would be lying to say I don't miss them when they're not here.
As always, more great reading material. You're probably (actually) right about detachment. I think I would have difficulty ignoring a text about feeling sad and missing me etc. I don't know how I could ignore that.
Yes, the exasperation of this sometimes gets me hideously annoyed, especially when she has no need to say anything nasty to me, but just picks something out of thin air - Wednesday being an example.
I have an opportunity to pull away again after this weekend. The kids go back on Sunday and we're back to the normal visiting routine. Due to my S's disability, he receives 'rewards' from a Government backed scheme which helps with things like clothing, bedding and holidays. In a bizarre twist, this is still allocated to W, but at my address, and their system won't recognise two addresses. Last years 'reward' was a holiday voucher and W used the voucher last summer to book a caravan in the first week of the April holidays. As anybody who has holidayed in a caravan will attest, April, warm weather and caravan don't normally go together in the UK?
My friend (best man actually) is coming up on the Friday before they leave on the Saturday and I have arranged a drink with RD on the Saturday (if that's still on bud?) that they return. If W asks I intend to just say that I have plans and leave it at that.
Still more to work on, but thanks as always in these trying times!
M 45 W 52 SD22 S9 D8 BD 6 April 2015 Not living together 4 Dec 2015
