More passive aggressive remarks this morning. Ugh. It takes all my strength to not react. My fuse is getting shorter. I just have to keep reminding myself that he is trying to bait me.
Also this morning I caught myself mind reading. Again. I am going to have to move mountains to get myself to stop. The rationalizations I give myself are just that, rationalizations. I tell myself I do it because of the lack of communication between us so I have to "guess" what he is doing/thinking based on his conduct. But really, what difference does it make? Right? He is going to do whatever it is he wants to do.
I tell myself I do it because I need to brace myself for worst case scenario. I have to prepare mentally for the worst, most devastating outcome. That way, when it happens, it won't be as much of a shock. But really, would it be any less of a shock? Probably not.
These are the things I have been telling myself. I have to find another conversation. Lol!
