Hi Bee, thank you for stopping by and checking in. I had been wondering about you since its been awhile since you posted. Post all you want, no worries about hijacking. Update us on yourself when you have time.
Sorry you've been sick too. It seems to be a bad year and our stress certainly doesn't help. Also sorry we will be going through D together but it's nice to be in company of people who know what you're going though. I'm so grateful for this board, I can't imagine going through all this alone with no support.
I've been coming to realize I also want less contact w/W. Being pals is just part of her MLC fantasy and she's not even being a good friend and it's hurting me. On the other hand I have to do everything I can for my kids through this so I will do what I can. I guess it will take some time to find a balance.
W was not good company the night of D's bday, not that I had expectations but she wasn't nice and tried to pull strings and have a ppm attitude. I kept my focus on the kids and had little contact w/her. Overall I think D had a good night. We're having a party for her friends Sunday and my parents are coming to visit Saturday. I'm sure she will be better Sunday since there will be other parents around. That facade must be exhausting.
You're right I do need to start thinking more about myself. Its taking me a long time to let go and realize the W I knew and love is gone.
It's been a little rough again this week. Lots of feelings cycling but they fade almost as quick as they come. S has been stemming really bad and D has been really emotional all week. S has also been sleeping w/me. Idk what's going on but I'm trying to be extra patient. I can't imagine how hard this is on them.
Buttrfly, I picked up some echinacea/goldenseal a few days ago and I think it's helping. I've still been really tired but not in the same weak feeling way as after being sick. Thanks again for the recommendation.
