Yesterday was the last of my introductory or foundational sessions for EMDR therapy. The foundational sessions consisted of one session of just introducing my situation to the therapist and him giving me a broad overview of what is to come. The next session we discussed what I viewed as the primary memories of the trauma in my life. Yesterday's session we reviewed in more detail what will happen during the actual EMDR session. We also created a "safe" place for me in my mind so that if things get too scary during the session, I have a soft place to land.
Tomorrow I start the real work. I have been doubling up on sessions last week and this week because I wanted to dive right in as soon as possible.
Part of me is excited to really begin this part of my journey. Another part is really scared. The idea of digging up ancient memories of past hurts that were buried so long ago is so frightening. But I believe in all my heart that in order to move forward, I have to go back. So with everything I have, I am going to dive right in. They are just memories and feelings after all. And we all know, feelings are not facts.
