Today is just another sucktastic day. I find myself going down memory lane again and I'm not quite sure how to stop it. All the way back to our wedding weekend again. Sigh.
I should know better. It's been over for a long time. I shouldn't care anymore, but I do. I shouldn't think about our failed marriage, but I do.
I just don't know how to rid myself of this ghost that has become a full-fledged haunting these past couple of days. There isn't anything of us anymore, but I still think like there is sometimes. I don't remember the bad times, because quite honestly, there weren't any. You know, maybe there was one disagreement/argument for the entire 10 years. Truth.
I'm stuck in what-if land, and there isn't a door out.
I think that ^^^ is pretty normal going through this.
I would be more worried if you DIDN"T feel this way...
If you were to look honestly at it, you might realize that it isn't your spouse that you miss, yet rather the memory of her.
And you are probably missing the person that walked down the aisle, and you made promises to.
That person isn't there anymore...
So you can choose to smile when you think about her, or you can choose to let it drag you down...
So she stole your rocking chair off your porch...
Now what ??
Dust yourself off buddy...these feelings are fleeting, and won't last forever....
