Today is just another sucktastic day. I find myself going down memory lane again and I'm not quite sure how to stop it. All the way back to our wedding weekend again. Sigh.
Jeep74, I think you may benefit from the abandonment book that Mach1 suggested for me. It not only explains all of these cycles we go through, but also gives really concrete, tactical ways of addressing them. I think you need to develop some new skills to deal with the ghost, the memories, the what-if land. And it's not just putting them out of your mind, or ignoring them or stuffing them...it's acknowledging them...and then learning to let them go...I'm not doing a good job of explaining...call it prayer, call it meditation, call it whatever you want...but there are physical and mental exercises that can really help with getting your head and heart in a better place.
Gordie 40s W 40s M20+ kids 2016 BD W fantasy affair w OM1 I do everything wrong 2017 I start to DB W says TLTL files for D PA w OM2 2018 I do LRT W drops filing and OM2 situation slowly improving
