MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART VI

[ItHurts]

Hey Zeus! Yes my friend I get every word you wrote. I still don't really understand what the hell happened three years ago. All I remember is devastation emotionally. Thinking three years ahead back then in 2014 seemed pointless. I didn't envsion anything. I was in such despair. Now looking back on those three years now that they've past...I've met so many new people...Men and women both. Some have came and went already... People my WAW never even met... Which at one time was a HUGE realization one night a year or so ago when I was out with friends. I was having such fun with all these people and when I looked around it hit me that here I am having fun with an entire group of people that it my WAW walked in she wouldn't know a soul. Then I remembered 2014...The year that will forever be tainted in my memory as the year my entire world, in every aspect, imploded around me...And how at that time I didn't have friends that WAW didn't know. So that hit me and was a "look at you now" moment for myself...Not the same guy who would come to this site in 2014 and read about others who had progressed years ahead of me and had lives. I was sure I would never live again.

So I totally get all you said Zeus. I am quite upset over this breakup recently because we pretty much lived together for 10 months... but really...After what I went through with WAW...This new pain and heartbreak over a new woman surely (hopefully) will wear off faster. Here I am...The dumper this time, and it still hurts.
I should add that I was very tempted, for only like the 3rd time, to break no contact and send a text to WAW since it's been about a year. Nothing about relationships of course, I just mean a light-hearted " hey saw a car like yours at the light and thought of you...hope all's well" I decided against it...Why break it now...It's a rebound mentality I guess. Imagine that...WAW considered a rebound! But I digress, I did want to send a text though because I think NC has run it's course anyway and is no longer accomplishing anything...In other words...Do I really have anything to lose in the WAW department at this point?
Anyway great to hear from you Zeus!!