The begining of the rest of my new life? (3)

[Ripe]

Well,
Here I am again, so I might just write something.
Eight months ago my end of mission arrived. I left the international organization I had worked for the last five years and came back to this little island.
I came back with my two kids and my mother, who accepted to give me a hand with the move.
Miss Opportunity stayed in the foreign country until November.
I had wonderful times in September, October and November. For the first time since September 2015, when Miss Oportunity left our house I had the kids with me all the time.
We went through the process of entering the new school, starting swimming pool classes and becoming boy scouts.
I managed everything smoothly, rented a new house and started working in my old office.
We connected with Miss Oportunity's best friend, who became my best friend.
She had endured ten years of domestic violence and managed to save the marriage. Now her husband and she are very happy together. She is with all the might of her soul against divorce.
We talked and talked and talked. She told me she had asked Miss Opportunity for the reasons of our divorce and MO could not give her one.
Then MO came in mid November and I saw saddness in my kids' eyes. Of course they were happy to see their mom but they knew their split life would start all over again.
Fast forwarding, the papers are signed and one of these days I will be a divorced man. I will not be there to sign the papers, my brother will sign them for me, but MO made a point of honour to be there. So she is willing to fly - the divorce will happen in the mainland - just to do that. She told me she needs to do that, it is very important to her.
Last week I had a small breakdown. MO's best friend offered MO and the kids a dog, saying she was giving the dog also to me. I was not there, but MO's best friend still sees us as a married couple. It was my week with the kids and they asked me if they could bring the dog with them, it had arrived the previous day. I said no because it is not my dog.
Later on I thought about it. We always wanted a dog, but could not because when we go on vacation we have no one to take care of him. And now the kids have one and I was robbed of the joys of it.
Also, the friend told me that when the kids are with MO they always go visit the friend. S8 loves to be with her husband and the friend told me one can really see he needs a father and when he is not with me he is replacing me with her husband.
I am having dreams were we reconcile. They are more like nightmares, because I feel nothing for MO but I know I would force myself to be with her again for the sake of the kids.