FG, I know what you mean about seeing pain in your children's eyes. At one point WH left the house and did not say when he would return. My DD6 asked when daddy was coming home and I answered that I wasn't sure. She said, "I think I need to cry now." I was gutted and simultaneously enraged that my WH could be so unbelievably selfish.
M 10yrs T 13yrs BD #1Oct 2015-PA between WAH and COW BD #2 April 2016-WH resumed PA, she broke it off Jan 2 2017 WH says he wants divorce April '17-Letting go 2018 D busted DD8, DS6, DS3