Sink or Swim

[Bdog37]

I'm not sure I'll ever be that open to anyone again. She did a number on my trust. Sigh.

I feel ya brother. I have already repeatedly told myself the same thing. How can I ever love again? How can I ever open myself up again? How can I ever trust again? These questions are all normal for a LBS because this isn't something that we wanted. However, learning from here I have begun to start loving my single self again. (I say single because you are correct, once they have D in mind there is no turning back). Therefore, by loving the person I have become from all this I know that one day there will be OW who recognizes that and will love me the way I need to be loved. Its going to take time and a lot of healing, but eventually I will open up again. I'm sure you will to and it will happen when you least expect it to.

I just never, never expected her to behave in that manner. It was nothing unlike I have ever seen her do in the time I've known her. Sigh.

^^^^UGH! Karma is a b****. Hang in there man.