I get the trust issues. My guess is that every one of us has them and will always have them in some form.
The problem is that if you let your mistrust fully take hold, you'll be a very lonely soul. Relationships require trust of some sort. Even if it's just friendship.
We will all have baggage that we will carry into any future relationships or our M for anyone lucky enough to reconcile. How we choose to handle it will set the tone for our own happiness. My WH is taking enough away from me now, I won't let him take away my future too. Hope you come out the other side, Jeep.
M:41 H:43 T:26yrs M:19 yrs S:15 D1:14 D2:9 Living together but separated