I have been busier than busy with the most awful class I have taken yet which is a full-time job within itself. On top of that I had a bad case of strep last week that knocked me out for a day or two.
Just wanted to put some thoughts out there. Things are going great between me and FF. We spend a lot of time together. I haven't spent this much time with a guy since I was married. And that was a loooooooong time ago. I actually love it. D9 enjoys it too when we are all around. Doing my best to be careful in that area. When I was sick, he was off and he came and brought me soup. He continues to be attentive and caring, funny, thoughtful, all of the above. We help and support eachother in the things we want to achieve, even if its me getting my school work done, or him with stuff with his business or going to the gym and maintaining a healthy diet.
Wednesday I meet his parents in a very unconventional scenario. We are all taking his sister's cycling class. I am beyond nervous. I've never been nervous like this to meet the parents, although his parents are the only one besides the ex I have ever met. When I am nervous, I make an arse out of myself. Please pray I don't.
I am thoroughly enjoying my time with him. Like I love it and I can't get enough of it. And that scares me. I am scared that if this ends it's going to be a big blow. I am doing my best to maintain a mindset of enjoyment with caution.
A year ago today exNG and I ended. I had a feeling of anger come up because I am reminded that he had someone else waiting or was already seeing someone else when it ended. They are still together, great for them, but I feel the anger that there was someone in the wings, I didn't know it, and he lied about it.
So I continue to enjoy FF and I am incredibly excited for our vacation together in less than two weeks.
Alls I have to do is continue to try to survive this class.
