I am really struggling with letting go because I am only in this country because of WH. I would never have left my home country if not for him. I recognise I am bitter because I feel like he took my life, my best years, and just trashed me when he didn't want me anymore. He moves on effortlessly, but I am on my knees scrabbling for the broken pieces of my life, and given the way I'm feeling, I may be for a few years yet.
I think we all struggle with letting go. Ah, the bitterness. It will go away in time. Mine did. Then came roaring back...then disappeared again...etc.
I know the feeling, I'm still on my knees scrabbling for the broken pieces, too. Sigh.
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I want to go back to my home more than anything.
I can definitely relate to this. What would be the implications if you just up and went home - could you afford and do it? Maybe that's the kickstart you are looking for.
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
