I hear ya brother and I know how you feel. After all my WW has done to me I would probably still try to save my M. Words can't describe the pain of loosing a S and in many ways it is worse than a death of a loved one. This has also been the toughest thing for me to deal with as well and will continue to be considering they will always be a part of our lives. I always imagined growing old together with my W and I'm sure you felt the same way. Now, its scary to imagine the future and all its uncertainties, but just know that D is still not the end. Just keep being the good father that you are and bettering yourself and maybe someday your roads will cross once again. Good luck today.
Sal,
I have read thousands of words on this forum. For some reason, what you said above really struck a chord with me. Very well said, sir. It encapsulates so many possibilities, in such a short paragraph.
The part about this being worse than a death rings true. I have seen it written many times, that divorce is worse than death, because it never really ends. Death is final. Divorce lingers forever. It is like a disease that you transmit to your children and grandchildren. Who the hell would knowingly and willfully ever transmit such a horrific disease to the very people that they love the most?
At the end of the day, divorce is only paper. It is not truly over until YOU say it is over.
M-42 W-40 S-12 D-10 Together-13 years Married-10 years Separated-6/2016 ILYBINILWY-7/2016 EA-4/2016 (best guess) PA-7/2016 (best guess)
