Tomorrow's a new day

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WH was served papers on my D's birthday. I knew it was happening that day and had crying jags that came and went all day. Meanwhile, I found out from OW's fiancée that WH left work early and spent the afternoon with OW instead of coming home to spend it with his D on her special day. This just breaks my heart.

I've started packing up my house. I didn't get very far. It was not too bad at first, but midway through my closet I lost it and haven't gone back to it since.

Today was D's birthday party. It went ok. I had to hide in the bathroom a few times to pull myself together. It was almost normal. We were almost like a family. And this will be the very last time for anything remotely normal again.

I finally printed the financial documents from my attorney and started to complete them. She also requested a 1-2 page summary of our marriage.. how did we meet, what was our life like together, what led to the breakdown? It was so hard to remember all of that and try to limit my life to 1-2 pages. My head and my heart hurt. I sometimes wish I could just run away and let someone else deal with it.