It's been a couple weeks since I've taken time to post. The week before last I caught the same flu the kids had and had to go out of town last week. I've been so tired since being sick I've been going to bed early every night and it seems like I can't get enough sleep.
It's been really nice this weekend so I did take the kids to a park yesterday and got outside a little today after bday shopping for D.
The week before last my attorney let me know w's attorney sent a proposed decree. I knew it was coming from the way W was acting but it still hurt so bad. I think I felt every emotion I've had over the last year and half, BD to present, cycling over and over in that one day. I was absolutely exhausted that night, it was awful. I never want to feel those feelings ever again and hopefully I've let it go. I met with my attorney the following day keeping in mind the advice here about treating it as a business gone bad. My attorney sent back her response. There wasn't much to negotiate, W left child support blank so my attorney asked what she wanted. W wanted half of what the state requires. That was quite a surprise, my attorney was surprised it was as much as it came out to be and half will make things easier for me. IDK why W did that, maybe guilt. I fully expected her to use it to go buy a new car.
It was very depressing but I also felt a little relief leaving the attorney's office. Maybe just knowing what was unknown. It is still upsetting W won't lift a finger to work on anything, but such is MLC so I will continue to focus on myself and the kids.
It is strange, we have almost daily contact. W will text funny pictures, to tell me kids said or did ___, or to tell me ___ is coming to town and chats while she is here exchanging kids. I try to keep being kind to her even though it is hard sometimes. Her mom was in a car accident yesterday (she's okay) and she told me all about it as if we were together. IDK what I'm doing, hopefully being kind to her is the right thing to do. I know there is friend zone talk here but I have to wonder if I was completely NC if it would further her unfounded insinuation of me being like her parents. For our first 4-5 years together she only talked to them a few times a year. They rarely if ever reached out to her.
IDK what to think about the decree finally getting done. I'm sure it will be ready next week if it's not already by the way she acts (almost like she expects me to be mad at her but then gets friendly when I'm not).
D's bday is Tuesday and it is my week so I invited W for dinner. Again, IDK if it is right. I don't want the kids to think this is normal but D deserves to have both parents for her bday.
