Just when I feel at peace with how it all turned out, I test myself by imagining seeing my ex with someone new. Then how would I feel?
Probably like crap, and that's putting it mildly. I would be lying if I said I was completely at peace with how my sitch is going, but for the most part I can think clearly and can finally see my future without my W. I then think of my W with another man and that breaks down my soul and the self doubts come crashing in. Sometimes I crazily think it would be a good thing for me because it would force me to really move on. I'm coming up on 10 months BD and if my W started seeing someone now then it's further proof a possible future M won't happen.
I'm sure its not healthy, but I haven't let my mind even think about that part of it. Although, i'm quite sure she's with him today as she's looking for an apartment to move into (he won't be moving in with her thankfully).
On the other side of the coin, OM's wife has had a hard time not thinking about her husband with my wife. So, while i'm intentionally not thinking about OM, his wife is struggling with thinking about the OW (my wife).
M:39 W:36 - D1:2 D2:6 11/19/16 BD1: ILYBNILWY, EA/PA Dec/Jan: MC, pursuing, not DBing 1/11/17 BD2: W wants 1 month break 2/1/17: Divorce Remedy. Start DBing 2/17/17 BD3: W - separation to start D process
