Originally Posted By: Kaizen

Do you have a pet? Even something small might be helpful.

Also, how is your house decorated? Can you make it more of a 'man' place with some art or photos you like? What about furniture?

Also, how about smells? Is there a scent you can get for relaxation or something?


Yup, we have a dog we raised from 6 weeks old. She's about 5.5 now. She's a great dog, boggles my mind that my W can just walk away from her for the rest of her life. Or either of us, for that matter, haha.

House is still pretty much decorated like it was when W and I did it together. She took down all the photos of us together, but overall it's mostly the same. The damn paint colors on the walls reminds me of her, it [censored].

I have seriously considered renting the house and moving into an RV. I don't need much...bed, computer, some place for tools, clothes....

My friends supported this idea at first, but they seem to have changed their minds recently. Also, I guess it makes me look weak by running away. She's probably not going to want to come back to a man who lives in an RV....right?

I hadn't thought about smells. I'd have to think about that. The smell of tires? The smell of exhaust on a cold morning? Probably not things that I want in the house. Maybe incense is a good idea though! Actually, I might do that, thanks for that!




I bought DR and it came in last night. Been reading it since then, it's very good so far. Glad you guys pushed me to get it. Got a great haircut today, I found a place that serves beer while you get your hair cut. That was pretty cool. Went to dinner with my buddy tonight. Tomorrow I'm going to wash the car and get my nice clothes ready for Monday. Probably do some repairs around the house. I'm not fully confident that I've got it together for Monday yet and I'm not sure if I will feel "ready" for it, but I am feeling better than yesterday. DR + Gym + Beer seems to be helping.


Is there any particular part in DR I should skip ahead to for right now in preparation for the meeting with my W on Monday? I'd like to finish it before then, but I'm not sure I'll be able to.


M-32 W-32 (both military)
T-8 M-6
PA Oct/Nov 16 (happened twice)
Discovered PA 11/30/16
S 12/1/16
MC 12/1/16 - 1/18/17
BD 1/18/17
A continues? 1/24/17 texts resume with W & OM
W Filed 3/8/17
W Deploys 7/17