I went against everything that I say and gave it one last shot, even though everything's done. I guess I still love her...I guess it's the way her past made her run. Whatever it was, I tried one last time. I guess I wasn't ready to put her away yet.
But she shot it down, quick like. No explanation, although I didn't expect one. Just no. I think the hardest part of it all is that there was no real reason as to why, well none that she could give anyway. Her affair, all of it. No remorse, even though I know better than to expect any.
This is probably the hardest thing I've ever had to go through - I'm not going to lie. In less than two hours I'll be in the court for the last time. The finality of it all is the worst. It wasn't supposed to happen like this, you know?
I know I'm not supposed to care after all that's happened and look at it like a business deal, but I can't just go business today. Part still cares. Part of me died last night.
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
