Not to dig too much, but are you just dreading Friday because you will have to see her? Its not crazy in my eyes to still love her. Betrayal after betrayal and I still love mine as well.
No, its not the seeing her. I sort of see her every night when she skypes with the kids. I think its the fact that this is the final part...the final dealing. For some reason, it's bothering me today. Even after everything she's done, it still bothers me some.
Like you, I act like she's a stranger. I have pretended she doesn't exist so much that its almost like that. All I get from her a day is when its time to Skype and all the text says is a simple "s." And she claims she is trying to be civil. It is what it is, my friend.
Cutting off the sources of the birdies is difficult, very difficult. She wouldn't Skype last weekend as she was out on a date. Oh well. I've asked one of the birdies that I just didn't want to hear it anymore...however, I have one birdy I won't stop, and that's the one remaining ally in her camp. This person knows it all - the entire truth about the ex, yet doesn't really talk to the ex. See, they define the word dysfunctional. But, through that one, I get little warnings...lately they are chirping about some plans the ex and the sister have concerning the kids. UGH.
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
