After D12 came back to us after the show, I casually said "we're headed to the Mexican place for dinner; you're welcome to join us if you'd like." He started to say no, then looked at D12 and said well, should I come out for Mexican? To which D12 said, I don't want to tell you what to do, I don't want you to come if it would be awkward. Then there was a little quiet back and forth between them while we were walking and he said we could go to dinner without him. I said ok, see ya, very lightly and we went on our way.
I think the thing about expectations is that in order to really reduce your expectations to zero, you just have to have your heart ripped out and stomped on so many times by this person that you get used to it. Like being desensitized to violence. I think until I get used to that happening, my expectations will never hit zero.
His brother and I use a code word when we talk now and one of us describes an interaction with H. We just say "Bubble." Both as definition and explanation. He is also isolated from H and is also feeling the pain of that rejection. Rip, stomp, rip, stomp.
Me : 42 Him : 43 M : 18, T : 19 D13, D11 4/16 1st BD (ILYB) 11/16 H wants s, moves out of br 1/17 H rents house & moves out 2/17 OW (he denies PA but EA last winter) 5/17 I filed for D 7/17 D Final
