The road to the big D is on its way. Received email from W this morning. Asking what time I’d like to meet her on march 1 to sign paperwork she filled for D process. I told her my understanding was that I have to be served and that I am not signing anything unless I have a moment to look over it. To which she replied with 3 options. And telling me that she basically suggests I take 1 or 2, of meeting to have her serve me and I can take the paperwork to look over, or we file jointly. Option 3 was she serves me. She quoted one of my texts, that I love her and D10 and that I wouldn’t fight divorce. I replied with you’re right I don’t want D, I will not file jointly. Option 3 it is. I don’t like that she’s still putting rules, and making me do things. Or trying to. Everything on her time. No. I’m important too. I can’t just drop my life to go meet her on Wednesday because all of a sudden she decided she’s going to file.
I also texted her telling her I’ve contacted the cellphone company to authorize her to take her lines, and told her to take them. I don’t need her seeing who I’m calling (lawyers) from what I understand, we both called the same lawyer to retain him. I called last week, no one called me back so I called again they took my information down, set up and appointment they asked for my W’s info. Then they called me back about 5 min later saying there was a conflict of interest and that no one in the firm could take my case. GREAT. The whole city and we pick the same one. Settled on a lawyer who told me not meet with her, not to sing anything, wait to get served then bring the paperwork to him and see where we land. He think’s best case scenario she might offer some $ from the marital property. Worst case she offers nothing and we have to “fight” for it. In which case he said he can get aggressive if he needs to. Which I very much like.
It feels so real. This is not ideal. I keep thinking this is a dream, that my Wife will all of a sudden appear. That she will show up at my house, or call me crying and wanting to work it out. I must wrap my head around, that’s not going to happen. On the same note, I hope she’s really pissed that I am not doing things her way. My good friend told me to brace myself, that she’s most likely going to project all her anger and frustration that surround her life currently, such as MIL being sick, SOW, and any issues with D10 and D10’s Birth Father, anything and everything basically.
Blu, I’m doing my best. Somedays I feel my best is not good enough. I will keep focusing on me and self care. I feel fragile & broken. To answer your questions, Can you truly love someone that can treat you this way? Do you not deserve better? I can’t and do not love her for treating me this way. I do deserve better. I do however love the happy person I was married to. I love who we were, who we will never be again.
V – You are correct, she feels entitled. I had not thought of it in that sense. I can sense already this D is going to be tough. It has yet to start and I already feel defeated. Thank you. Sometimes I don’t remember to be kind to myself.
Gotta keep reminding myself, this woman is not my wife. This woman is looking out only for herself.
