So Confused and Conflicted (3)

[Dawgs]

You can't do anything about your hands, but like other muscle groups your forearms can be worked. However, as you are well aware, it takes some eating to put on muscle along with harder than average work in the gym. When I was in the middle of all this crap I lost roughly 20 lbs - down to 160 something, and on a six foot frame, that's very noticeable. I was just like you. Just like you. It took a veritable hammer to bring me out of it...then I got mad and hit the weights harder than in a long time, and ate better, too. You'll find that a little bit of anger can help. haha.

That's an interesting hobby you have - but I'm on the opposite end of the gaming...I'll think nothing of logging on late nights and doing some MW or CoD. But, like you, I kind of lost interest in my hobbies, too. One of mine was building plastic and flying airplanes and all. Lately, I've gotten back into building them and also wooden ships...since I'm a perfectionist, I find it forces me to not think about other things.

I'm going to be honest like the others on here have said - even though you don't think you came across as desperate or whiney, you have...BUT, that's completely normal. We all have been there. All of us. And sometimes I find that its not that hard for her to drag me down into her pit again. Ugh.

Wsh, you are in a great group of people who want nothing more than to help you. Understand that. We all have been exactly where you are. ALL OF US.

Now, first things first. Get a haircut. Eat. Go to the gym or a nice long run. Do something out of the ordinary for you. Try to talk to someone without mentioning your situation in any form. Skydive. Whatever. Just do whatever.