So Confused and Conflicted (3)

[WshIKnw]

I'm trying to change my thoughts and keep depressing songs from playing in my head. This morning, as soon as I woke up, I just laid in bed interrupting all the usual thoughts and songs by singing the first non-depressing song that I could think of, Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. I just sing it in my head over and over when the negative thoughts and sad songs come. I think I am being successful with this so far this morning. I also try to think positive thoughts instead, but it's hard when I feel like my positive thoughts are not realistic. And I'm eating now while doing this, which is the most important thing for keeping my depression away. I may leave the house and live with my dad and stepmom for a little while, because being here, especially when alone, and especially in the morning, has gotten to the point where there is a strong pattern of heavy depression when I'm here. Every single thing in this house reminds me of her and my loss.