Pink.....thank you for taking time to "speak" to me. I know that you truly care about me and my overall well being, it shows in your responses.
Not much is going on lately, just work. Today I have gotten some "chores" done around the house which needed to be done....not fun, but had to get finished.
I've been reading some of the previous posts from the vets and they keep saying the same thing...... -focus on me -take care of the person that matters most..me -stop beating myself up -be kind to myself Not really sure why all of this is so difficult? But, I do know that it is becoming easier to do some of those things.
I've had some sad moments this weekend, which isn't unusual for me. One thing I've been thinking about is H is attending something called Landmark Forum this weekend. It is an intensive 3 day workshop on how to communicate better, and learn how to relate better to those around you. It is supposed to force the participant to reflect on and examine his or her life in an effort to make positive changes.
I mentioned this to my IC, who had previously done the forum, and he mentioned that one part asks the participants to make a phone call to someone to redefine what’s possible in a relationship where they are struggling. He said I should "expect" a phone call from H.
Well...the 3 days of the forum are almost over and I never received this phone call. Now, I know I am not supposed to have any expectations of my H, but I guess I did. Honestly I did expect a phone call from him. So the fact that I did not get one is upsetting. I was really hoping this would be the start of some kind of communication between us
What this says to me is that I STILL have A LOT of work to do. Clearly I have not detached or let go, and that my life is still being controlled by his choices and decisions.
Where is my friend SkyHigh? Hope you are doing good and that your piecing continues to go well
