Would it be fair to say that you might have been led to believe that there was some hope given that you have been spending time with him? That's my guess and it would be understandable.

Based on your post, you have experienced a tremendous amount of growth. This is another step in the process. You have done great. Believe it. It's your time to get back on track knowing that your H is moving forward with the D.

Right now, he doesn't deserve you in his life. He has a lot of his own work and growth to go through. Until that happens, you have to believe that you deserve better, because you do.

Me:45 ExW:48
M:04/97
3 Bombs & 2 ReCons
1st BD 11/10
D Finalized 4/20
D-16 S-14
Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa