Well, the session went pretty terribly. By the endo of it, she said she hates me and that she now remembers why whe left. I will admit that I was more abrasive than I really needed to be in the situation, but I believe it was just a coping mechanism. She told the counselor and myself that she had no contact with the AP since Sunday which may have been true up until yesterday. However, I know that last night around 7PM this was no longer the case. She was supposed to text me to let me know if she has ANY (even professional) contact with him, and she has yet to do so. Our next session is next Thursday and while my intent is to be much more open minded and non abrasive, I am very curious to see if she divulges this little indiscretion (contacting OM) to myself or the counselor before or during the session. If not, I believe this is a pretty good indication of how things are going to go.....which is clearly NOT GOOD! It [censored] because I definitely felt bad for the way I handled the interaction after leaving the session yesterday, and texted her to let her know that I will work on being more open minded the next session and to try not to let hate control her. Then I find out she texts OM...so now my mind is all over the place again. THIS IS WHY I WAS SOOOOO HESITANT TO DO THIS AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!
