Honey, this is just really so awful, truly it stinks. It's like a long walk to Antartica without snow gear.
This is high conflict divorce at its worst. You have a family involved, its a lonely place you find yourself and an expensive one.
You feel like a victim but I would suggest you are in trauma. A target and hurting from that. Really you are.
On the basis that the pen is mightier than the sword get it all out, the hurt and pain. The inadequacy and futility.
Write until your fingers drop off.
Keep going until you are spent. Read on high conflict and court matters.
You are going to be brave, how do I know this? Because wonderful lady you are you, stronger than you know.
Here take my hand and rainbow strength, and for a while rest.
Know this, the arrogant Wassocks we call entitled waywards strangle themselves. Displaying their prowess and crowing they go far too far. Stay calm and observe. Become reporter style, what would a top journalist from Time say about the ex. Keep your notated diary simple clear factual and without emotion. It's ok to be down truly as a target for high conflict it is.
Breathe at ease and be still cradled in the short peace between the conflicts. Let yourself just be and recover.
Extreme, extreme self care is needed. I know this is tough to do, especially as lack of sleep will create many problems.
Know you are supported, you know how to find me.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
