Needing Some Guidance 2

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So she has admitted to me that she crossed the line emotionally with a om1. I think in her head she doesn't think it was an affair. We all know different.

Yes, I overheard her say she was at om2 house. She of course denies it, and says I can't tell anything from a one sided conversation. A liar is gonna lie, though.

If I had definitive proof that she had a PA, then I would have no problems leaving. That comes from seeing my Mom struggle with my Dad's PA in childhood. In fact there have been several times that i just wished she would say there was a PA, so i would stop trying to work on the marriage and be confident in my decision to end it.

I actually had a conversation tonight, with my younger sister. She is in medical school, and has already done her psychiatry rotation. When i was talking to her tonight she said I sounded like I was working my way (in a healthy way) thought the 5 stages of grief.

She said I went through denial pretty quickly. Then I went through my anger stage, blowing up every time i found a text message or something. I went through a brief bargaining period (God if you stop this, I will devote my life to you). She says it sounds like I am going through some depression right now. But she said pretty soon i will just accept that our relationship is over, and will have no qualms with getting divorced.

But, then she also said maybe things will turn around and it won't come to that point. We both kind of laughed a little when she said it, because neither one of really thinks that she will turn around.