Yeah, I need to be tough, stop trying to help and fix.
Just had this interaction: W:I think this storm is affecting me. I feel really unstable today, struggling to hold it together. Doesn't help when D5 tells me she hates me cos I don't have a blind bag for her.
Me: Would it help if I came straight home and looked after D5, you can get some space and peace. She is just processing through a lot of emotions at the moment. She doesn't mean it. She told me she hated me last night in the bathroom.
W: Not being funny but you don't really give me a break when you are here. You make things worse.
Me. OK, I'll stick to plan A then.
I thought that was it, but the spew is now coming as I sit here typing on the train.
W is saying: We have never been on the same page. She will bring up D better on her own. Though you want joint custody, so I don't know how you will keep up with your leisure activities then... (she obviously doesn't understand the meaning of joint!)
W: I think my internet friend is a very good excuse for you to blame everything on that, so I don't see how life would be any different with you.
W: and what's more, this atmosphere is very bad for D (no shizz, Sherlock)
W: I'm very happy to sell the house and get my bed back too.
Arghhh... I haven't responded yet. My train is delayed, which may prevent me going to Krav Maga tonight if it doesn't get a move on. I just see another rage/spew build up coming when I get home.
It's hard to act 'as if' when this is what you get. Some friendly houseguest that I have living there
Do I validate via text, or do I leave it?
-- Me: 47 WW: 35 SS: 17 D: 5 T: 7 yrs Engaged: 2 yrs OEA confirmed: August 17 2016 ongoing since April 2016. OEA continues (with occasional breaks) BD2 - W says will visit OM in Jan 18
