I think you are right. If I had to rate how things are going right now I would give it a zero. I guess the only way from here is up right. I keep reading on working on myself and getting ME right, which i am already doing. Eating healthy, exercise, spiritually, etc... but if I dont talk or see her how will she she that i have become the man she wants to choose? Or is this even the point? I need to work on me, for me, right? So day 1 i guess on the new me and total 180's. Again, by nature I am impatient but that is something i need to work on. I think that if i dont see some type of sign or improvement between now and the divorce hearing (3.5 weeks) then I will go through with it. The thing she really struggles with is selling the house (its the place where all of our sons friends congregate), a home we have built together. Also she is not ok with us living in 2 separate apartments with our son going back and forth between. Her quality of life will be significantly diminished, but I dont think at this point she cares. Since she got pregnant at 19 and didn't have the "fun" time in her life she is finally getting to experience that. The problem being that it comes with consequences that she could and probably will regret later on because its going to cost her her family, home, security, money, etc... From what I understand here, there is nothing me or anyone else can do to convince her of that. She will either decide its not worth it or decide its worth it and possibly regret it later on.
Also, should I be dating? I have opportunities to do so now. If so, should I tell her or "let her find out"? Does creating jealousy help?
Me: 38 Her: 33 Bomb: 1/6/2017 Separated: 1/10/17 Together: 16 Years Son 12 Years Old She and Son still at the house Divorce Filed/Retracted Multiple Times Divorce: scheduled to be final 6/20/17