Infidelity/WAH, my story pt 9

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I think those resentment waves are hitting us during piecing because we can finally "rest" our mind, we are not in constant fighting mode anymore. Rest is nice but it allows us also to look back at those past events under a different angle, we are not reacting to them and trying to find a solution but now we are analyzing and judging them. We are getting hit by the harsh reality of their behavior toward us, we are becoming aware of the huge discrepancy between "them" and "us", we have been destroyed emotionally, we have been cheated and lied, our trust has been exploited, but them, they had a "good time", nobody cheated on them, nobody lied to them, nobody exploited their trust, they messed up and we have to be nice to them, it's all good...

Who should be grateful for piecing us or them? I don't have a answer right now.

I know he is trying very hard to prove me that he changed, he is giving me proofs of that every day so right now I am going to satisfy myself with it even if I wished he could be more "remorseful" with words. Stay detached is the key to keep going until that MLC journey is done. I am thankful that my children have their dad and their mom together, everyday I witness how divorce/separation can affect children and it's hurt my heart.
Kids are very good at hiding their emotions to their parents but at school they lower their guard and allow their emotions to resurface and believe me that's heart wrenching.