Tomorrow's a new day

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What a week this has been. H is now blatantly open with dating his OW. Made sure I was aware of his date with her over the weekend and his impromptu meeting last night. I honestly have no feelings about it other than that it's rude and disgusting. You're still in my house! He had the nerve to tell me last night that she baked him cookies and would it be ok to bring them in. Ummm....no. keep your gf's crap out of my house. Is it me or is this just beyond crazy? I am not your friend. I am not your roommate. Why should this be acceptable?

I took off my wedding ring. So strange after 20 years to not see it anymore. I find I keep trying to turn it before I realize it's gone. I went out with a friend Saturday night which was fun. Met with OW's fiancée for coffee Sunday. Listening to him I find myself wondering how H is going to feel in a few months when this new R fails. This is not a woman he's going to tolerate long and he's kicking his family to the curb for her.

I'm finding out that once people know about your impending D, they are very open with their own issues. Not only friends, but even a guy from my D's sports. All I hear myself saying lately is the grass is not greener...fix your marriage. And unfortunately I'm learning not everyone is who they say they are or you think they are. Makes me saď.

The best part...received a text from H this afternoon... 1st mediation appointment scheduled for this Monday. These mediations are supposed to be in lieu of courts and attorneys. I called a new attorney though and have an appointment with her tomorrow. Of course I knew it was coming, but it still feels like a kick to the stomach. It's the beginning of the end. Such a scary place to be.