Long time, very long time indeed. We are all trying to get a grip on our lives. And I am really sorry this man is such junk.
But, as we all learn here, it's not about them but about us, what we learn through the process and how we come out of it.
Going back to the DB rules. We can't control what they do or say, but we can control us. And even with some ups and downs I see you are controlling your side.
Your situation is very unfair. Besides having to deal with the logistics of a difficult D, there is all bunch of emotions that comes and goes with it.
I know you need to work a lot and there is probably not much energy to use somewhere else. But, I would like to know if there is any support. Like a friend that is willing to listen, or a group therapy once a month at least.
What are you doing to keep your sanity?
What is happening to you is really traumatic and it would be better if you deal with some side effects while dealing with it all.
You know I ignored my childhood traumas for a very long time and mainly I tried to sweep the sexual abuse like it never happen and it all imploded inside myself when things got difficult.
Just know that you are an amazing person, with an amazing head on top of your shoulders. You are strong, decisive and a fighter. But there is just so much a girl can take. So, please let us know what are you doing to get your head from fighting the D and work. It's very important to take care after yourself.
Besides that, if one of these days you feel like coming to America, you are welcome to stay at my house.
V, it's not easy, but I know we will look back one day and feel proud we did our best for ourselves.
