My journey in all this seems looking back you could outline it in sections, thinking about that ... might do some good to actually Outline it all ... may think of that ... anyways ...
I think men typically look to date to fill the void, rebuild ego and just validate they are worthy .... for whatever reason seems we take the personal hit of OM a bit harder than our LBS-W counterparts. Again ... just difference in the sexes in my opinion.
You are correct in the thought that you are no where near the emotional level required for a new relationship ... with all that has happened you are not even there to have one with your W either, that's the PTSD effects of a BD and something you will have to sort through as you process and heal.
Thing to keep in mind, you can not control her, OM, the weather nor all the elements that surround you ... you can only control how you react to these things, and tbh at first its hard to even do that ... you have to train yourself. Control you, focus on you, improve you ... the rest is out of your hands.
