Same Sitch. New Approach. Motivated. Feeling Good.

[Woke_Up]

I swore off ALL snooping only a few weeks ago. There wasn't much left to snoop, my W changed all her pwds. But I was still doing things like looking in her purse, looking through her closets and jewelry drawers, and being all consumed with where she was when she wasn't home. I still catch myself doing these things and try to stop immediately.

This is my particular poison also. Even after my DB coach told me to stop doing it, I still even checked her phone yesterday while she was in the garden... just pressed the home key twice to see that Skype was in her active apps. Couldn't really read much of what she was saying. It's just a peculiar form of masochistic self flagellation, maybe reinforcing that I can be the victim.

I need to shed this victim mentality. Leave that to her. It's all straight out of the 'Drama triangle' and we're all vying for the victim position. Every time her phone is unattended and I don't snoop, I see that as a small victory.