It takes two to make it work (pt. 6)

[SBJ]

Gord...I read his response on your thread and also read the link to eric's and I agree that fear is the answer:
1. I was a 20 yo kid when my W and I started dating and I don't have much life experience w/o her.
2. She has been responsible for all of our bill paying and finances for so long that I don't remember the last time I balanced a check book.
3. She has been my one and only intimate partner for the last 25 years.
4. I am fearful that I won't look right in the eyes of those that I talk to about God and his desire to keep marriages together...even though this is not my idea.
5. I am fearful that my kids will see that D is the easy way out of a M if you don't see eye to eye with your spouse. I don't want to ever hear that they give up and I feel that by going thru with a D that I am giving up on my M.

I really don't have any good answers to any question other than the fact that I guess I am co-dependent to my W. I was happy when she was happy. I gave me pleasure to do for her and give to her. I forgot what it means to be truly happy for myself. Not to mention the fact that she wasn't one to do for me simply out of the kindness of her own heart. An old joke between us was that there are "givers" and "takers" in this world...I was the giver and she was the taker. It finally was summed up by her extreme selfishness in our current sitch.