I did have a handful of threads. You can click on my username, and go to "view posts" to read them. I've only tried to read through them once. I didn't get very far, because it was difficult to revisit them.
I still suggest not to pursue your W.
What have you been doing to begin making changes within yourself? What are your goals, outside of saving your marriage?
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa