Leahsue, you're overthinking it. Just get out and do something tomorrow. Go for a hike, or to a movie, or for a run. You're stuck right now. The only way to get unstuck is to decide you're done with that. I've found that jumping head first into something helps me, but even just starting with a small activity tomorrow, and another Sunday, and letting it snowball from there would build up some momentum for you and get you unstuck.
What are you doing to fill your time right now? I'd bet it's not enjoyable, right? The reason your situation is grinding on you right now is bc you're allowing it too much time in your brain. Doing things you enjoy, trying something outside of your comfort zone, etc all force your thoughts away from this stuff, at least for a little bit. Your mind needs a break from the battle that's been waging in there. You will feel a lot better if you can get back to a balance.
The exercise has been my godsend. The frustration, pain, anger all seem to roll off when I'm active. Add to that that it's easier to sleep and stay asleep when you're physically exhausted and it's probably the best medicine for this, at least initially. As you advance through this and get greater understanding of yourself, that'll help as well.
Hang in there, but know that you have a choice in how you react to this. You can choose to start the healing by GAL, seeing friends, exercising, etc. You can choose to be strong and push forward. I know how hard this part is. Been there and it's awful. Figure out what your goals are this weekend and make the choice to start working towards them. We are here to support and help so lay some of it on us. You will get through this, but make that first choice to stand up and push through this thing.
Me39 M11 : T13 D9 BD 5/31/16 In House S until 6/21/17 Divorced 10/5/18
