Newbie Thread 6

[lt0402]

You have done the same for me hawk and it's massively appreciated! I feel like I'm eternally in everyone's debt around here for helping me grind through this rough spot. While the reasons we are all here suck, I'm glad that we've all found each other! Don't know how I would be where I am without y'all! Keep up the awesome work hawk!

[bsb]

Haven't been on here in several weeks so catching up and checking in. Glad you are doing well!

Seems to be a lot of new faces on the forum. I hate it for all these newcomers

[hawker]

Hey bsb,

I am doing okay, just trying to stay busy and doing things I want to do. Yes, there are alot of new faces sadly.....but I am glad we are here to support them like everyone does for us...crazy how life can change so quickly...

[lt0402]

Agree. Its tough seeing the new names pop up all the time. Hard to believe that we are no longer the new folks anymore. Hawk and bsb, hope y'all have some good stuff setup for the weekend!

[hawker]

Well...I had a good weekend until I got my final D papers in the mail on Saturday. Ugh...I was out with a good friend Sat. night and had a good cry when I got home. Sunday and Monday I had alot to do so luckily I didn't have alot of sitting around time.

I know my M was over at BD but it is still just unreal and I don't understand what happened. But I know I can't change the way she is right now and I just have to keep moving forward, I am ok on my own. I would rather have her as my W but I will be ok.

[cheesyt]

hey hawk,
sorry about your D being finalized. I can't imagine how difficult that was. You're right, our M's were over long before D is ever finalized.

Indeed it's weird we are not new!!! we've come such a long way, and we've got an even longer healing road. I guess we all start to fall off as our D's get settled. or started...as that's what looks like my stitch will be here soon.

Glad we're all still here supporting each other!

[lt0402]

Hawk, first, I'm sorry about you getting the papers this weekend. I know that's got to be rough, even if you feel ready to have something like that happen. You sound like you're doing well after it though. You have alot to be proud of in yourself. Remember, no one knows what the future holds. Just keep working on yourself and I've no doubt good things are in your future.

But I know I can't change the way she is right now and I just have to keep moving forward, I am ok on my own. I would rather have her as my W but I will be ok.

This is how I know you are going to be ok. You have such an awesome perspective on this thing. Here for you Hawk. Hang in there.

[hawker]

Thanks LT and Cheesyt....I couldn't have been where I am if it wasn't for you guys!!! I appreciate all of the support!! I continue to volunteer and GAL and just do the things that I enjoy.

You guys are both awesome and deserve the best...we all do...I do hope that good things come in all our our futures.

The EX texted some random thing today about a dog virus going around the city??? Like we got D papers this weekend and you want to text me that? Is she checking to see if I got them? Is she trying to ease her guilt by starting a conversation??? Weird...just weird....

[fightin]

Ugh, I can't imagine that feeling, sorry. Sounds like you took it in stride though all things considered. It is perfectly healthy to acknowledge the pain that comes with it and then pick yourself back up. Proud of you! You seem to be a very strong person and I admire it.

Goodness knows what on earth she was thinking texting you that. Maybe she did expect you to say "btw I got the papers", or maybe she was just being friendly because she felt guilt, or maybe she was being friendly because she had regret and wanted to reach out. Really no one knows. Waywards be cray-cray, that's all I know. We can't figure them out no matter how we try, they just do weird stuff. Ha!

Keep us posted. If you need some support as your sitch gets down to the ugly reality of D then you know where a lot of listening ears (eyes) are to vent to. Much love, and stay strong.

[hawker]

Thanks Fightin, I appreciate it!! I try to be strong but sometimes I'm not but I know that is part of the process. :-) Yes, they are cray-cray that is for sure!!! I just don't get how they don't seem to give a crap...I will never understand that I guess.

I will post when need to vent more...hahaha thanks!!