One thing I'm seeing is that it appears that you are trying to make changes for her and to win her back. The thing is, it can't be. If she notices, great. If not, then you'll be more than ok.
I'm talking about what I would do differently if she ever came back. That's extremely important. Be the same old husband when she comes back, and where will that take me?
M: 33, W: 30 @BD M 7, T 10 BD: Early Dec W left: Late Dec W got stuff: Late Jan W sent S papers: Mid Feb OM cnfrmd: Late Feb
Pain can yield tremendous growth OR everlasting sadness and bitterness.