Thanks for checking in on me Bttrfly. I'm doing alright, I was having a bad week for migraines but it seems to have passed. I'm trying to deal with them naturally because I hate the way the medications make me feel and haven't had to take them for years. I accidently got glutenized a few times the week before which may have had something to do with it. You asked about stress in reply to my post and your thread and at first I thought no, but after I thought about it a bit I think I am really stressed but don't notice as much because I'm able to deal with it better now. A year ago I would've been a mess dealing with everything I am.

A little journaling..

I had the kids last week. D wanted to do a cheerleading clinic after school and then they cheered at a high school game this weekend. She absolutely loved it, I'm glad I could make it work for her to go. That girl loves to sing and dance.

W has been having quite a bit of contact. A few nights last week (can't remember why) and three nights this week. She ate dinner one night after we were done and even complimented me on it. She was trying not to eat but it was a pasta I used to make and she kept saying it smelled good and finally made herself some.

A lot of the contact was to do with kids being sick and me having them at my office this week but she would stay and talk with me. No R talks, mostly about her work but she would also show me things (mostly facebook stuff)on her phone. Tuesday she told me happy Valentine's Day before leaving. It was unexpected, I just said "you too." That night she texted me a couple things she copied off facebook saying she thought I would think they were funny. It was nice not having her be nasty on a holiday.

Last night she told me she was telling me all about her work. Problems with contractors, a guy they were about to hire, a work stalker (customer), and a creep (customer). She was also selected to go to a training seminar at a fancy resort. I congratulated her and told her how great it was. She was really happy and looking for validation. Then she kept talking about needing to loose weight and getting a new swimming suit that didn't make her look fat and showed me a couple. I wanted to tell her she wasn't and looked just fine but didn't say much other than she looked fine. Another reminder for me to detach because I immediately wondered who she was trying to look good for. It's hard with so much contact.

I've noticed W is really out of it lately. She came to watch D Saturday and called me from the parking lot because she didn't know where to go into the school. I told her the west and she got snippy about not knowing directions (the mountains are to our west, not too hard). She used to be really good with directions when we went places. She met with us after D was done and when we went to leave she was lost inside. She has also been telling me the same things two or three, sometimes four times and can't remember things I told her even the night before as well as some things from before BD.

So much talk about getting old... IDK what to say to her, it's ridiculous. Any suggestions would be helpful. I tried joking and told her I was going to get her a plastic cover for her couch.

Kids have both been sick again, one after the other starting last weekend until yesterday. It will be a miracle if I don't get it, pretty awful but they're okay now. It seems like we're perpetually sick. I have to think the stress has weakened the kid's immunity.

It seems like I haven't been able to do much but work, take care of sick kids and running around when they aren't. I have been trying to exercise more and have picked up a couple books not related to relationships/self help. Our weather has been unusually nice and I was able to get a bike ride in tonight.

I also found out through attorney emails that supposedly w's attorney put together a decree and gave it to w to review but hasn't heard back so I guess I will see.