Just keep plugging along

[cbtdad]

Mach I did respond to you about the 10 year thing. Here it is again:
"The 10 year thing was something she said. She said it as we were going to pick up our son after counseling. She said, "just because we may be ready to file when I am done with school, can we wait till the end of October? So we can say we made it 10 years"
This was also after she said she was going to ask me to move out at the end of April.
I am trying not to pay attention to any of that."

I'll do my best to answer your questions.
First it isn't hurting so much. I know that I have become a better man, but that I still have a long road to go. I understand like she has said many times that I "shattered the plate" one too many times and it cant be put back together. And every time I get close, it gets shattered again.
yes. I totally admit to slipping up at times and showing that side of me that I don't want to be. It's something that I work on everyday and continue to make progress. I guess I wish she would see that and understand that it's not gonna happen overnight and that should would do her part. Like I said, that's where maybe it's too late.
You on dead on with the relationships with neighbors and friends. And she even said the same thing you did pretty much. That they only see the side I want them to.
I am staying until she slows down for him. Because between my schedule and hers its what is best for him. I truly am at peace knowing that I have tried everything I can to become a better person. I have failed many times and I keep going.
But with that said yes I am scared, hurt, anxious, etc
But I am also excited at times. I am an emotional rollercoaster lately and that I DO NOT LIKE!!!
I am always open for talking!! you know that